New Year, Better Me!
I was looking at one of the ad campaigns we’re supporting for work called New Year, New You. Now, no offense to the folks who came up with that idea, but the more I’ve thought about it, the more I don’t like that idea. For the most part, I like who I am. I don’t want to find a new me, I just want a better me. Which I think is the whole point of New Year’s Resolutions. We want to build on the foundation of the life we’ve been creating and make it better.
One of the things I realized in the last few months of 2013 is how much of my true self I’ve been repressing. Things I love that I’ve been pushing aside for practical reasons, because I’m afraid, because I don’t know what to do, because I’ve forgotten, and probably a lot of other reasons. But what I’ve found is that as I let some of that out, I’m really a lot happier. The other thing I’ve realized is that as focused as I’ve been on a lot of the mundane, I’ve really lost a lot of focus on who I am. Over the past few months, I’ve been really stumped by questions that dig down to the heart of who I am. Things I feel like I should know the answer to, but I don’t.
At the end of 2013, I committed to doing some things that dig in to who I am and who I want to be. 2013 saw one of my major dreams come true. And while I couldn’t be happier over that accomplishment, there are still so many things I want to do. Looking back, I realized that years ago, I thought that when we reached this level of income, we’d be really set. And yet, in some ways, we’re no farther along in life than I’d thought we’d be. Some of that is my fault, some of it is the hubby’s fault, and some of it… well, it’s just how life happens sometimes.
So this year, my goal is to be more intentional about making my life more into the life I’ve always wanted. Don’t get me wrong here. I really like my life. I’m so blessed. Sometimes it’s overwhelming to see just how blessed we are. But there are also longings in my heart, dreams I have, that I’m more focused than ever on pursuing. I always start my year really focused on all the great things I want to do, and at some point during the year, when things get crazy, I forget. So my hope for this year is that I don’t forget. I’m also working on some plans to help with that. For example, I’m participating in an art journal project called The Documented Life Project. Art journaling is one of the things I’ve been doing to make myself happy and rediscover myself. Hopefully incorporating that into a planner will help me be more organized. Plus, I’m also adding a new aspect to it- I bought the wrong planner, so I have a ton of extra pages. I decided to use those pages to help with my goal setting and goal planning. I’m hoping that having my goals and dreams close at hand- as part of my daily planner- will help remind me of my focus.
How are you focusing on the new year?